humanism 6???

We live in a world where self betrayal is mandatory– and the ones aware of this hurt personally, those unaware are hurt on unconscious psychic levels. Folks perpetrating dishonesty and therefore disconnection against themselves and their communities will go on drawing blood from everyone struck with their being. All this and more- they will not fathom that they are wielding a knife. And this knife is also symbolic: yes in its capacity for violence- to be used as a weapon, its sharpness and danger. But also in the pagan sense of the knife cutting through to severance. Cutting the cords if you will. The knife of self betrayal (knowing or unknowingly) cutting the threads of our shared humanity; threads which lead to connection on a deep level.
I feel when I was growing up it was all about walls- old men- fathers- with walls surrounding themselves, bricked in – as a defense, as a barrier– as a sign. And now many folks of modern times exist with, yes, less barriers– oh many will pride themselves on the lack of boundary, openness and relaxed elements, but on the threshold of the entrance to BEING KNOWN, they stand armed. Armed with the only weapon they can create and wield under threat of being known: dishonesty, self betrayal, resentment. It's funny in a way because this type of dishonesty, self betrayal, resentment is the type that one must actively convince oneself of. Continuing to search in the world for justification of its self imposed existential suffering. Attached to the suffering and disconnection we point at each other and cry, “I knew you would hurt me! Everyone always leaves.”, in blindness to the fact that the cords we cut are our own.
Accountability in the face of severance is a precious and rare thing– accountability in the face of harm borne from dishonesty… even rarer still. Not because most people are afraid of honesty itself, but because in order to be held accountable for one's actions in a community– one must make amends for the harm done. And amends cannot be made with any fertility if the HARM IS STILL BEING PERPETUATED. Of course someone dishonestly living in self betrayal, striking and smearing the blood of others on their path will not ever step forward in remorse if they still are bent to betray and strike and smear.
I don't think the modern propensity for this phenomena we see in community interactions has root in any foundational evil of humankind. I don't. That would be a cop out– and I have succumbed before, comforted by apathetic indignation. However today there is a contextual framework of nuance and ambiguity present so potently in our communities and relationships and bodies. In a time when polarization and extremes of fascism have taken bloom in power structures so lived and felt– there is a growing number of folks ready and equipped to hold those who, in their fall from grace and power of harming others and themselves, have become OPENED to surrender to their truest humanity.
The folks ready to hold the falling masses who have bled others dry and lost themselves in the process– are people who have been afflicted and shaped by their own fall from grace. The damaged ones falling back to earth from the cloud of their resentful zeal will fall into the arms of the earth who takes the form of those transcendent. The shepherds of the life of the future. Those who inherit the earth will not be the meek. And they will most certainly not be the “powerful” we see in global structures today. It will be those attuned to the subtle, those who have borne the suffering of estrangement from their own selves and called out to others for support– to the mother to be held. Those who have lost it all and had restored to them what they truly need. They are the people who will teach the newly fallen and who will survive.
Consumers will die– producers will live. It comes back to this and not just on a global capitalist scale but on a personal one as well. Those who don't know how to survive and be in the world without drawing blood and consuming it; they will die. Those who live in unity of the self, their truth, who have fallen and stand now empowered, who lift and carry and teach their fallen brothers, who produce comfort, tenderness, knowing and can wield the knife to cut away the sources of suffering– not wield it as a projection of suffering… they will live. This is metaphorical and symbolic in essence– but not entirely. When we discuss areas of community accountability and self realization we are also talking about the case of life and death. Any awakened spirit will go through the throes and tribulations of the tumult of awakening. Such types of “rude awakenings” can be so painful in fact that the human system wishes for death. The pain of heartbreak, of death, of failure, of facing the consequences of making mistakes- these pains can cause deaths of the human organism– on multiple planes of life.
The world is for everyone because it is of the pure essence of everyone, but once the pure essence becomes clouded, snuffed or erased– the world is no longer for you. And this can be felt!! This is why the suffering of self betrayal can be so complete it consumes the life force energy of a person completely!! To live in vital breath, to be present for the little precious time we have left, means living a life not left unsaid. To embody truth, to blossom youth, means escaping the smallness of ones head. For the world expands, in grasslands and stars. And the world demands that you show up as a part. And without this place, one will wander disgraced– until the hand of love guides one back to ones fate. So mote it be.